From the hammock in my backyard

It sucks missing people. And the more I go to camp the more people I have to miss! And Facebook is great, but it just doesn't cut it with actually BEING with the people! Did you know I was so bored today that I map quested how long it would take to hit every place with the people I miss the most. I went from Vegas to Lander, WY to Lincoln, NE to Broken Arrow, OK (and then some) to Kansas to Dallas, TX to Las Cruces, NM to Tucson, AZ (and other places around there) and back up to Vegas. It would take 50 hours. It'd be an insanely awesome road trip though.

On the flip side, at camp we talked about Heaven and one thing that was just amazing to me was that we won't have to say good bye to people. Think about how freaking awesome that will be! So I guess there's hope there!

And I started freaking out over the future once again. I had to go to my friend's wedding reception (where I felt totally awkward btw because it was a Mormon friend and I was the only one wearing a tank top... haha) and her family kept asking if I wanted to teach here and the honest truth is... I DON'T KNOW! Making decisions suck, but in the mist of all my stressing out I just all of the sudden felt my heart sink and thought... "one day at a time Melissa, there's no need to freak out about a year from now, just focus on what's happening now!!!" So in conclusion I came home and filled out an application for substitute teaching! So I'll hopefully start that in the Fall and have that as my main job as well as my job at UNLV! Lord willing... I'll survive! So whoever does read this... say a quick prayer for me: That God would pull my heart the way he wants me to go and give me the willpower and self-confidence I desperately need to survive life after college!

I think that's it for now.

July

I woke up this morning upset becuase I had to go to work. I've been use to not having to go to work so much. Today... I felt much better once I stepped outside. The smell of wet grass, clouds over-head, nice temperature... *sigh* It makes me wish I didn't hate waking up early so much so I could enjoy the morning before the Vegas grossness kicks in.

Aside from that... sometimes I wonder why I even keep this blog going, I know I haven't had it that long, but does anyone besides Tobi even care what I think?! haha

And most of all I wanted to share how happy July has made me!

-First and foremost... PYA; the meeting new people, getting to know old people even better, refreshing my relationship with God, learning so many new things, and just enjoying being away from the craziness of life.

-Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows; which really made my summer complete! *sigh*

-Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

-Tegan and Sara's new CD! It's just so fabulous!

-Sunshine; the new awesome movie I will be watching tonight!

-Once; which I watched about a week ago. It's a really good movie, and has an awesome soundtrack!! So y'all should watch it too!!!

-And July 31st... HOT FUZZ out on DVD! horray! Then I can watch it as much as I want!

And July isn't even over yet. I just feel so relaxed and calm... even though I should really be stressing over the next upcoming month August. I just feel like I finally have a summer break and it feels great! So I will spend my time wisely; savoring every day of this lovley month with my friends, family, and maybe even work on some crafty projects that have been sitting in my mind for FOREVER now!

The end.

Take it up a notch

My brothers have deemed the month of July take it up a notch month. And even though it's not over, I feel like I have lived up to this month; from things such as opening up, to putting myself out there, to not looking back and just moving forward, and to really trying to work on my relationship with God.

I just got home from PYA and as normal God did one huge work on me! I really don't even know where to begin! Camp is just so hard to explain to people, it's so hard to articulate. But I do know that I love how God works on us when we're in a group of believers. I feel like it's God's way of encouragement in that we can all talk to each other and pray with each other and just be there to help one another through it. The speakers we amazing! They weren't just speakers, they interacted with us and they genuinely wanted to get to know us. The message was outstanding! In a short summary, we talked about creation, then the fall and all that comes with it and then Heaven and glorification. I have never seen the fall like I have that week and I have never been so excited about Heaven before! Friendships were made that I will never break and relationships built upon and made stronger. We talked a lot about being jars of clay and how we are not stable, but that's why God built us like that, so that his strength can shine through us!!

Blogging is a strange thing, it's suppose to help me sort out my feelings right? But I feel so lost as I type. But then again, I just feel lost being back at home. I wish that I could gradually be pushed back into my normal life, but instead I have to just be tossed into the wild pack of wolves waiting for me. I guess it's just God testing my patience. I wonder if this is the place I'm suppose to be, but I think it is, I'm not 100% sure, but I know I can't leave my family. They need me.. no matter what hell I'm being put through, and no matter how alone I feel at dealing with it all, they need me.

But anyway, there are pictures from camp under picture thingy. I don't really know what else to say at the moment. So peace