Take it up a notch

My brothers have deemed the month of July take it up a notch month. And even though it's not over, I feel like I have lived up to this month; from things such as opening up, to putting myself out there, to not looking back and just moving forward, and to really trying to work on my relationship with God.

I just got home from PYA and as normal God did one huge work on me! I really don't even know where to begin! Camp is just so hard to explain to people, it's so hard to articulate. But I do know that I love how God works on us when we're in a group of believers. I feel like it's God's way of encouragement in that we can all talk to each other and pray with each other and just be there to help one another through it. The speakers we amazing! They weren't just speakers, they interacted with us and they genuinely wanted to get to know us. The message was outstanding! In a short summary, we talked about creation, then the fall and all that comes with it and then Heaven and glorification. I have never seen the fall like I have that week and I have never been so excited about Heaven before! Friendships were made that I will never break and relationships built upon and made stronger. We talked a lot about being jars of clay and how we are not stable, but that's why God built us like that, so that his strength can shine through us!!

Blogging is a strange thing, it's suppose to help me sort out my feelings right? But I feel so lost as I type. But then again, I just feel lost being back at home. I wish that I could gradually be pushed back into my normal life, but instead I have to just be tossed into the wild pack of wolves waiting for me. I guess it's just God testing my patience. I wonder if this is the place I'm suppose to be, but I think it is, I'm not 100% sure, but I know I can't leave my family. They need me.. no matter what hell I'm being put through, and no matter how alone I feel at dealing with it all, they need me.

But anyway, there are pictures from camp under picture thingy. I don't really know what else to say at the moment. So peace